Hell broke down, update on fan fics

Well..Yesterday was not a good day. I wanted to tell you guys some peices of it that I hope you guys will learn from. I won't put in all the details since it is personal.

For a weird reason my sister hanged out with my ex bff. I didn't want to meet her so I stayed at home. I don't want anything to do with her and she is out of my life. But then my sister did something that I will never forgive her for, she brought her here. And I even told her before she left that I didn't want her to come here because I don't want to meet her. 

So it was pretty awkward and I was so angry. It was so sad to see how she is today compared to how she used to be. I just sat in my room watching a documentary about North Korea since I think it's pretty interesting. And then my ex friend randomly said "You know Japan is a very weird country" This was about Korea and she randomly talked about Japan? She started to say that she thought it is a scary country because their culture is so different compare to ours and that all the people looks the same. You have no idea how furious I was when she said those things. Now you know why she isn't my friend, she's an idiot. Of course their culture is different! It would be weird if we all had the same culture. And about what she said about the people, Oh dear lord I wanted to send Belarus on her! She has no idea, Asian people have almost the same skintones as us Europeans (that's why Hitler put them as nr 2 in his race category). I have done research about it and people who lives in for example South Korea care a lot about how they look. They even have beauty standards about what is beautiful and are pretty much obsessed about western look. Which makes them want to do surgeries and crappy things like that which makes me sad.

Anyways this has to be my most awkward moments in my life so far. Imagine it for yourself, meeting someone that used to be your friend. You haven't spoke to her for a year and now she is in your room. My sister talked to her but I didn't, you can call me rude if you like but I was so upset and angry. All they did was looking at what I was doing on my computer. And after what she said about Japan, I watched a video on yt about a luckyduck who filmed when he was in a manga store in Japan. So this was sort of a big f*ck you to her. Suddenly my sister left because "I did boring stuff on yt" Which made things even more awkward between me and my ex friend. I just pretended as if she was air. If she actually wanted to be my friend she could've at least talk to me but she never did. 

So after she was finally gone I sort of broke down. I was so sad and upset especially on my sister about why she brought her here. She said she just "Came along" without even ask if it was okay. I still care about her but I know that things between us will never be the same. She was like a sister to me, but she has changed so much and does stupid things. And I don't want those kinds of people around me. I was so tired yesterday because I cried so hard, I just wanted to go to sleep. It was only around 20.00 o'clock which is too early to go to sleep. When I woke up today I didn't even want to go up, but then I thought about you guys and got out of my bed. 

I am still very sad about yesterday, I'm still crying. Call me drama queen if you like, I can't help it that I am so sensitive. I cry very easy. I would never do something like this to my sister, she is the same she doesn't want to meet here old friends because they are so weird nowdays. Do I bring them here? No. And just now when I have been so happy and positive the last months things have to screw up! 

What I want you guys to learn from this is. Stay true to yourself, don't ever change yourself to it in those stupid standards. Don't use drugs to hang out with the cool gang in school etc. You have no idea how much it can hurt someone who has known you since you were kids. People say that love hurts but friendship can also hurt as much. I don't say that changing yourself is only a bad thing. It can be a good thing as long as you feel happy about it. Choose friends who likes you for who you are not what you have. 

I seriously don't know where to go from here. I feel lost and sad.

Now when that is settled let's talk about something more fun. 

I am planning on writing two Hetaliaxreader series. But the thing is that I can't decide which one to start with! So I'll explain what they will be like and you guys say which one that sounds the most exciting.

The first one has aort of the same theme as my HetaliaxAbused!Orphan!Reader. The plot will be sad but with a lot of things that is going on. I'm still not sure about it but I will figure something out. It's hard to tell info about this one

The second will be based one a documentary that I saw two days ago. It was about wife kidnapping in Kyrgystan, apparently it is an old tradition. A group of men taking young women from the street and kidnapps them forcing them into marrige sometimes a stranger or someone they know. Now this is illegal but it's still happening and no it's not about religion since they are muslims over there. It's actually happen in some other countries in Asia, even Turkey that people marry young girls off. Even if they are only 15 years old! So I wanted to do a story about this but more in a western style make people now that things like these are happening today 2014. 

So what sounds the most interesting? Let me now

Take care everyone